I know and I love


As time goes on, I often find myself wishing life would just pause. Pause so that all , but I , would freeze, giving me a moment to completely absorb every smile, see my reflection in the sparkling eyes, feel the warms of the little hands, fill myself more with the joy and giggles coming from little squishables. My dearests are growing. Growing so fast. I cannot believe that my , just born yesterday, beautiful boy is nearing 6... So grown up and so not a little boy anymore. So wise and so smart. So beautiful and so strong.... I see that my time is going fast, and I am in love with every moment we have. I know that soon he'll be too cool to climb on my lap with a book. And very soon it will not be me kissing him when he gets hurt... And yet, I know that it will be the best time in HIS life then.

I know that the trips to the make-up store with my little girl are very soon going to be not just to play, and the first "mommy, do my "bitiful lipsis too!" are the first training steps. And very soon boys are going to appear much smarter to her. And being objects of other interests then biting and fighting.

I know that the first steps my littlest baby is taking are her first steps in life. It is hard to believe that a little warm bundle that was just born what feels like yesterday, is a little person on her own that has no problem of telling you off for taking her to change a diaper when she's in the whole middle of fun of "typing" on the laptop.

I love to see the three of them sitting together, two discussing the importance of fireplace for Santa, and the third one having the time of her life taking the socks off. From everyone.
I cry. And I am happy at the same time. I know that my time is not for ever. Yet... I wouldn't have it any other way. Your happiness, my gems, is my treasure.